Friendship

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I used to think friendship was
sleepovers and play dates.

But I know it's not.

Friendship is there in the morning talks
about what happened the day before
and why the hell you're still awake.

Friendship is there in the afternoon
laughing so hard you're on the floor at
a corny joke for the third time that day.

Friendship is sitting there eating in
silence because you would rather eat
than talk, and they would too.

Friendship is something that you
brave enough to show them yourself
without afraid being judged,
or being left.

Friendship is crying together at the
corner of the fast food restaurant,
just because they don't want you
to cry alone.

Friendship is love in the strangest ways
when all else is lost.

I do love that kind of friendship.
We do.

Toxic Relationship

To be honest, bagi saya berteman sama perempuan lebih susah dibandingkan berteman sama pria. Entah karena saya lebih suka make a relationship simplier dan menghindari drama episodes, atau saya kebanyakan salah pilih teman perempuan, yang jelas berteman sama cowok terasa lebih easy going dibanding saya harus jungkir balik cari teman perempuan yang nerima saya apa adanya.

Bukan berarti saya nggak seperti cewek pada umumnya.. Saya sama kok, punya masalah dan kadang menangis, atau ingin sekali cerita kalau saya punya masalah. Tapi semuanya ya berakhir dengan nangis sendirian, intropeksi sendirian dan cari solusi sendirian. I kept whole problems by myself without telling others and solve it myself.

Dan menurut saya, semua temen cewek saya nggak ada yang seperti itu. They told me their whole stories and it's fine. They told me their dates with their crushes and burst into joy, I felt happier than they were! Or if they got into promotion, got a prize or got some luck in their way home, I felt so congratulate about them! Or even they cried and lean on my shoulder about what happen with her boyfriend on last night's fight or their family matters or even their whole problems in life, that's fine and I'm all ears. 

But what doesn't and never fine is if they baper over something riddiculous.